Somewhere I belong

The past few days have been really messed up.
I am consumed by a overwhelming sense of laziness. And its taking the toll on me.
After the accident, the docter had advised that I will need a lot of physical exercise for completle recovery..... (Sometimes I wonder that the accident was just the cause for a lot of things to happen)
Anyways... I used to force myself to go to the gym for some days. There is always a problem of injuring yourself if you dont do things properly in the gym. Dharmendra now has a slip disc in his neck.

So the doc told me to play something.. He suggested that I play football.
Now I play football everyday. I have installed FIFA 98 on my machine.


To be fair to the doctor and all the people that helped me in the therapy, whatever is fixed now is largely due to their patience and effort. Whatever remains broken is still because I am not making an effort to straighten up the mess.
Linkin Park keeps playing in my head:

When all the vacancy the words revealed
Is the only real thing that I've got left to feel
Nothing to loose
Just stuck, hollow and alone
And the fault is my own and the fault is my own


And I've got nothing to say
I can't believe I didnt fall right down on my face
I was confused
Looking everwhere only to find
That it's not the way I had imagined it all in my mind
So what am I

What do I have but negativity
Cause I cant justify the way everyone is looking at me
Nothing to loose
Nothing to gain, hollow and alone
And the fault is my own and the fault is my own

I will never know
Myself until I do this on my own
And I will never feel
Anything else, until my wounds are healed
I will never be anything
till I break away from me
I will break away
I'll find myself today